Jæi

(Of course I clicked the snap attached to this post, incredibly, using the mobile phone camera!)

For the first time, felt envious. Like there was something dear missing which ideally, I felt entitled to own. Having never believed in a life free of regret, the fleeting moments of realization are filled with sadness, bringing forsaken thoughts of unrealistic expectation to the front. Consoling oneself with the knowledge, that the times already past can neither be changed nor undone - only makes matters worse by inducing a feeling of helplessness.

A humorous thought expressing need based change but conveying an essential choice was made by Groucho Marx. It went like this: Those are my principles, and if you don't like them.. well, I have others.

Strange, how humor manifests itself only in other peoples pain. Ones own experiences seem futile when it comes to laughing. It is because ego comes in the way of making life nonchalant; ensuring seriousness in an otherwise inconsequential existence. If the purpose of life was to be happy, more than a decade must have been wasted(in my life) distancing the soul from attaining its rightful place.

The pursuit of materialistic ownership actually empties the heart, forcing it to find a sense of fulfillment where none exists. A response to compensate for a lack of emotion leads to the extreme ends of disturbance in mind and subsequently affects the quality of life drastically. Obviously, this does not go unnoticed and leads to a performance related anxiety affecting all aspects of life. Over powering such shortcomings is very difficult as the mind keeps getting distracted and losing focus. Immense will as well as strong desire are the prerequisites to be cured.

Contrary to popular opinion, most people affected, do not even have any "want" to be better. Satisfaction is the one thing to do without in this instance. Its more of a resistance to do better and improve upon, rather than being surreal and wanting more. Acceptance of ones disposition is blamed on fate and denotes resignation causing the death of desire. The secret is to repeatedly keep saying 'NO!' again and again to avoid being lured into the trap. Declining once or twice to the invite of an escape is simply not going to cut it. So, good luck and have more!