Walked by

There isn't a single nation today, on our planet - Earth, which defines itself by using bullet points, to draw up its constitution. Digression is therefore not just a matter of fact, but is an essential tool, used to get as close to perfection, as is possible. - snt7650

Every limited period of a certain number of revolutions of earth around the sun are given a name, in terms of calling it an 'age.' The thing of interest in this kind of a system, trying to draw a conclusion, is to calculate the realization of an era gone by.

Just to be clear, this is not an attempt to categorize certain periods of time with regards to talking about it's specialties so as to clarify or add to already existing generalizations. Instead, the purpose of this essay is to delve into the reality of time on a completely different but intensely personal differentiation which affects the daily routine of any random creature, on earth at least, which is capable of holding a conscious thought.

The scientific community(in this age and at this time), generally tends to agree on certain principles supposedly governing the universe we know of. Discounting the theories which are as yet only suppositions and do not have practical proof for the purpose of creating a base on which we build upon certain presumptions - only to extend our understanding of the universe we exist in, it's relatively easy to understand that the reality of our existence, on an intrinsically molecular level, lied in just two theories which have consistently been proven, repeatedly so, for the benefit of skeptics.

The two theories are:
1. The general theory of relativity(as against the special theory of relativity) and
2. Quantum physics(rarely referred to as quirky mechanics, which probably was slang for fooling the religiously suppressive christian bishops who eventually ended up jailing and sometimes even burning alive, people like Galileo).

Damn it, looks like I lost it again.. must be getting old but don't feel any bit wiser. (Of course the photo is mine! Wasn't it typical?)

Wishlist

After about a decade of trying to find the answer to the question - "what do you want?" - finally figured it out.

Ask and you shall receive was really a terrible predicament. It might seem like a rich kid trying to decide what to choose from the options available, each of which would hold a value greater than what a needy person might want in 8 generations! The true issue with this line of thought is that everyone presumes everybody else's value systems are the same. No matter how similar the portion of a circle may actually be, it's always the other half we wish we'd chosen. In addition, the feeling of being inadequate always seems to arise after the choice has been made. Strangely, this behavior only seems to affect the humans, as every other creature so far observed, seems to have lost its appetite, the moment it's need is fulfilled.

Another thought which predominantly supersedes the selection of a particular want is the knowledge of a conditional prize. Historically speaking, most of mythology from the ancient world is filled with examples of a blessing or a boon eventually being broken. For instance, one of the most well known stories is that of the king Hiranyakashyap having obtained a sort of shield against getting slain by - either a man, woman or an animal, neither in day or at night. Eventually, out of arrogance of having acquired a great power, he asks his devotee son Prahallad 'why do you pray to an unknown God when I am the all powerful being right in front of you?' Seeing a devout and pious kid in trouble, God decides to help and comes over in the form of a human body with a lions head, at dusk and shears the cruel kings abdomen causing him to die without breaking the boon/blessing.

Regardless of the factual basis of the story, the thing to learn is - there's always a workaround and nothing is really foolproof. There is always a catch! Having gained such wisdom, what could you possibly ask for, knowing for certain that you'll somehow or the other have to pay for? And if you are going to pay for it, wtf bother asking in the first place, especially when its going to generate an obligation?

Allow me to give an example. Popularly speaking, one of the most frequently desired 'wants' of an employee is a raise/hike in pay. The thing which none of these employees bargained for is the expectation of the employer to expect at least as much more work as is deserving of the hike. Obviously, this ends up translating into additional work load in addition to what was being delivered before the hike, we know only too well that it ends up translating to longer work hours and increased peer pressure, in the end the demands at home in terms of spending quality time increases and there comes a time when you don't know where the additional money went or it may just be uselessly sitting in a bank account because you gotta work the weekends or late nights to cover up the added responsibilities. Your health starts to deteriorate as the body struggles to cope and keep up with the demands it was never designed for!

All of this translates to one thing - stress. And that my friend is how you end up paying for that raise you thought you got just because you asked for and got. Try again tomorrow, after you have had a chance to sleep over it and ask yourself again - what do you really want? Add the disclaimer too - what & how are you willing to pay for it?

There will come a point when you'll start understanding this - God's dynamic - as I like to call it. That is the real deal. That is when the conversations, discussions and emotional arguments start. Fun times in flashback, but devilish hell while going through it.

Knowing it, is in itself a kind of relief because it's reassuring to find out you aren't the only one. As much as the inner voice of an egoistic winner may complain about being #1, the fact remains that being the only one of a kind, ahead of all others - is a very lonely place. Moreover, the concept of ranking in itself arises out of striving to continually improve "as compared to others." In simpler terms, if there are no others, there won't be any #1., it'll remain the only one!
Eventually, all of it seems to come down to the quintessential - society. The one thing that folks are ideally not supposed to do, is to compare. That is supposedly one of the universally accepted ideals. Yet, at every instance of physical and mental change in an individual's life, aka growth from infancy-adolescence-maturity, the only measure used to asses the performance till that point, is comparison.

Btw, did you really think I'd actually mention what it truly is, for me, that I wanted? Okay, here's a clue - you already know it! ;-)

Flaming Telepath's and Astronomy

Some of the most intriguing and explosive poems.. very brave, deep and difficult.

The construction of the song itself seems so natural with Eric Bloom's voice stirring up feelings stowed away since ages past. The way the synthesizer feeds into the piano and then into the guitar solo is just flat out perfection.

Well I've opened up my veins too many times

And the poison's in my heart and in my mind

Poison's in my bloodstream

Poison's in my pride

I'm after rebellion

I'll settle for lies

Is it any wonder that my mind's on fire

Imprisoned by the thoughts of what to do

Is it any wonder that my joke's an iron

And the joke's on you

Experiments that failed too many times

Transformations that were too hard to find

Yes I know the secrets of the iron and mind

They're trinity acts, a mineral fire

Yes I know the secrets of the circuitry mind

It's a flaming wonder telepath

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Clock strikes twelve and moondrops burst 

Out at you from their hiding place 

Like acid and oil on a madman's face 

His reason tends to fly away 

Like lesser birds on the four winds 

Like silver scrapes in may 

And now the sand's become a crust 

Most of you have gone away 

Come susie dear, let's take a walk 

Just out there upon the beach 

I know you'll soon be married 

And you'll want to know where winds come from 

Well it's never said at all 

On the map that carrie reads 

Behind the clock back there you know 

At the four winds bar 

Four winds at the four winds bar 

Two doors locked and windows barred 

One door to let to take you in 

The other one just mirrors it 

Hellish glare and inference 

The other one's a duplicate 

The queenly flux, eternal light 

Or the light that never warms 

Yes the light that never, never warms 

Or the light that never 

Never warms 

The clock strikes twelve and moondrops burst 

Out at you from their hiding place 

Miss carrie nurse and susie dear 

Would find themselves at four winds bar 

It's the nexus of the crisis 

And the origin of storms 

Just the place to hopelessly 

Encounter time and then came me 

Call me Desdinova 

Eternal light 

These gravely digs of mine 

Will surely prove a sight 

And don't forget my dog 

Fixed and consequent 

Astronomy...a star

Leaving the crutch, for now

Gotten off of Facebook day before yesterday, at least for now.

Part of an experiment to figure out how difficult announcing events and getting information about the people you care to know about, is going to be.
Almost silly really. But considering the amount of dependence on a website which hardly anyone knew of even a decade ago is astonishing. Right from accessing my own data to using apps for which fb's login credentials are used - vanished without trace.

I've ceased to exist.